Depression - 15 years on
Yesterday I heard an interview on BBC Radio 4 with an experienced police officer who suffered depression as a result of his prolonged exposure to managing crises. He described his descent into depression and how the difference between sadness and depression is like comparing a puddle to an ocean. 15 years ago I descended into depression. I would feel sick every time I drove to work. I considered just driving off and not coming back. I managed a day hospital with a fantastic small team of caring, innovative staff. I gradually spent less time with them, often sitting in my office at lunchtimes instead of with my team. My sleep became interrupted and I woke up early most days. I didn't see my descent despite being a mental health professional. I had written to my manager expressing my unhappiness at the lack of support for my team and unit and how I was experiencing stress at work. I got no answer until one day when I was off sick, my manager rang me at home to tell me my acting up
